Moving on, life is really good. I'm happier than I've ever been in ways that I've never felt before. There is a very solemn yet wholly enlightening feeling of love - of compassion, strong will, and everlasting joy in my heart. And it is all thanks to Charlotte Grace Foster. God, even just the thought of her name makes me feel warm inside. She has inspired in me a different and much more articulated view of the world and, while I have not lost my own beliefs and ideas, she has given me a greater sense of open-mindedness. Charlotte Grace Foster has changed my life and, I almost forgot to mention, today is her birthday. This wonderful, beaming, bright, inspiring beacon of hope is the only reason I felt inclined to write here today (other than the whole schedule thing). I feel so amazed when I look at her (sometimes stare) because I get lost in her beauty and, sometimes, I wonder how it could be possible for me to feel so strongly about anyone, more than I've ever felt before... I sit and I stare and I just marvel... What beauty... and I realize that this is the deepest feeling I've ever felt before - my very soul is rooted in it, succumbing to it, willed by it. This is a feeling that will change me... Make me a man... Give me a purpose... It feels like an eternity beyond any other. I know it must all sound pretty crazy. I mean, love, as it has always been known, is a trivial thing and it comes in many different forms but this - this feels right. I've always been taught to do what I know is right - what I feel in my heart is the right thing to do - and, being with her, near her, even just thinking about her feels so right. My soul is electrified as a write. For her birthday, I bought her a promise ring (it may be a little cheesy or cliche or whatever) because she and I have endured so much (together and apart) that I wanted to commemorate how much we've been through and represent our love and how amazingly well we've progressed. I love Charlotte Grace Foster and, even if fate should decide to separate us at any point, I will never stop loving her; she will always be a part of me. People will think I'm crazy... They'll call it "young love" or whatever they want to justify their own feelings... but I know that this is real and I'd be willing to stand in front of her family and my own family and proclaim it to them - hold my ring high in the air and smile. This is true happiness.
All in all, things have been crazy and full of struggles that many will and have already faced. My life is changing drastically (and for the better I might add) as we settle into this new year. I have no regrets. I love all my family and all of my friends and, hopefully, they'll understand that time is a problem right now; it's something I seem to be running out of for some people, at present. I promise, though, that things will change eventually - that they will get better. I'd also like to take this time to remind everyone that we all have someone who depends on us and who we depend on so, in times when we think of ever taking our own lives or thinking that we have nothing to live for, remember those who love you and who depend on you, and realize that you have all the potential in the world to make a difference, but we all have to work to get there. Life is hard but, as long as we strive for our goals and treat others the way we want to be treated, we can make it easier. The bottom line is that everything takes time. Make time to live and be who you are, not who others tell you or expect you to be.
Until next time, dear readers...
Yours Truly,
The Fro
