Green Eyes
Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, I have a new girlfriend!!!!! Yes, that's right, your's truly has finally found someone who he can talk to and be with almost everyday; she makes me extremely happy and I'm so glad that I got to know her better over these last few days... I never wanna let go of her. Her name is Charlotte. So, my dear reader, this means you won't have to read about my precarious infatuation with Hazel or my constant pursuit of Emma Heidenheim's attention anymore. To be completely honest, she makes me completely forget and erases the feelings I had for those two long ago and she supports me and wants to understand me... and I want to support and understand her.It's like this relationship came out of nowhere which, I suppose, proves the theory that the best relationships you'll ever get into will come from somewhere you weren't looking or at a time when you've given up your endless search for love's undying gratification. For me, the search for someone had produced a plethora of candidates and each person I've considered dating has their own unique qualities that either I can relate to or that I find interesting. That being said, I gave up my search for a relationship because I realized that was the wrong way to go about things; you can't just strike up relationships out of thin air, or just choose a suitor like some dating game, you gotta work towards them and let them happen naturally through good chemistry and communication. Charlotte stood out because not only did I like her but she liked me as well, and there seemed to be an instant chemistry between us that struck up as if out of some happenstance of fate. She is extremely knowledgeable and active in the community; she's always there to lend a helping hand and she's a lot of fun to be with. Anyways, that's all I really want to say about her at the moment because I feel like you might get a little bored reading on and on about what I think of her but she's fantastic.
Awareness
Well, tomorrow is a day for awareness of Self Abuse (which has become quite common among teens around my age and thousands of people across the world and in this very nation). In an effort to raise awareness, students will be writing Keep Fighting on their arms and I expect you'll do the same (I know I will be). It's something that affects us all really... I know, in the past, I've contemplated hurting myself even killing myself, but then I realized that what I was going through at the time wasn't even as big a deal as I was making it out to be. I realized that I still had a wonderful family life, amazingly supportive friends, and a lot of achievements to be proud of. Now, I have so much more to be proud of: Hairspray, all the friends I made in BMT, all the friends I've made in Beal Singers, the teachers who I've impressed, the awards that I've won, and now a beautiful, intelligent girlfriend who cares for me and who I care about very much. I'm glad I chose not to hurt myself because it might have affected all of the achievements I've made, all of the people I've met... I'm glad I'm still here.
"Shawn Harding approves this message. And if you don't like it.............. no pancakes for Jenny."
All These Things That I've Done
It's been a crazy couple of weeks since school started. I have no idea how things have suddenly become so good but, now that they have, it's making the rest of my school year look wonderful. Sharon and I have discussed continuing work on Insanity's Bride in Matt's absence and we've kicked around a couple of ideas but, until we can arrange a full-on get together, things have been put on hold; meanwhile, I've been trying to integrate a melody I used in my overture for Insanity into a solo song for one of the villains. Another project, besides the numerous projects I've received from my teachers, that I've been gathering ideas to add to is my controversial tale called Hitler Saves Hanukkah. The story of Hitler Save Hanukkah is intentionally absurd and features some very offensive ideas and such, but it's all quite good-spirited and doesn't actually reflect any of my own views. Since I don't have a solid story figured out for HSH but, instead, a basic idea, I've been coming up with a number of ideas to advance and thicken the plot. I can say that it will involve aliens, giant space-dwelling grasshoppers, time travel, a renamed Earth (it'll be called Disney World), and an epic face-off between Adolf 2.0 and Santa Claus. It all sounds quite crazy and offensive and all that right now, I know, but I'm writing it because it's a completely wacko idea and it's original.
The Loyal, The Trustworthy, and The Honest
I've made it no secret that I used to be a dishonest person. I used to say stuff and not mean it and try to fit in like a fool who didn't know how to be himself. As soon as Grade 10 began, I knew things had to change and I learned a lot about trust, honesty, and loyalty. I've come to appreciate my surroundings and the people who want to be a part of my life because I also want to be a good and memorable part of theirs for as long as I possibly can; I don't want to be some fake personality who tries to please everyone. By being ourselves, we can tell who our real friends and, unfortunately, enemies are. Truth be told, I don't have many enemies to boot and I don't intend to make many in my life. I've made mistakes. We all make mistakes. For a long time I've been trying to redeem myself and, through doing so, I have learned so much about my friends, my family, and my own life; I know now that I want to do my best and be myself because that'll be worth so much more to the people around me and myself in the end.
And So...
Life goes on. It's so great right now and I'm extremely happy. I have amazing friends, a fantastic girlfriend, and a wonderful family. I know my post tonight has had a bit more of a profound twist to it but, with everything going on lately, I think I just needed a little review to put things into perspective and really bask in the moment (not that I'm bragging). I'm in love with life now more than ever and I appreciate it. Now, instead of doing my homework, I will go text Charlotte and read a couple pages of Batman: Year One. After that, I might read some of Dracula for English and I most definitely have to study for my Biology test tomorrow... Anyways, this is the Fro signing off; I shall return soon, I'm sure.
